Making Progress

The week before my birthday on Dec. 14th I decided to quit my only job, which was part-time and causing me emotional and physical pain. I didn't have another job in place and knew I was going to lose my excellent benefits, but it was still not worth it to me too stay any longer. However, in doing this I was walking by faith and not by sight, and God came to my rescue because of my faith. In my last week on my job I interviewed for another position that was full-time with another company. That same week I got word that I was hired, and started Dec.20th. God is truly good. I am so thankful for this opportunity, so now I can move forward toward my goal of obtaining my own place. My dear friend and fellow former post-bac student has an interview in January at UIC, and I am claiming it for her that she will be accepted for the c/o 2012. I will be right behind her in the medical school c/o 2013 or 2014 depending on what I get accomplished and when in 2012, but my goal is still the same to attend medical school despite the odds. I just have to continue walking by faith and not by sight, judge not by appearances, and take risks.

God Works in Mysterious Ways

Today I had an interview for a job position that I thought sounded like it would be perfect for me. I would be working as an autotransfusionist under Specialty Care, Inc., which they would train me to do. I would work in the OR at 4 different hospitals, and be on call. I thought this exposure would be exactly what I needed, and the experience would benefit me when I am in medical school and residency. However, during the interview after I answered his questions about myself the interviewer basically spent half of the time dissuading me from pursuing the position, and encouraging me to not put off medical school. If  I had decided to take the position I would be required to work for 2 years. He told me how much the position is grueling, and how the surgeons especially will look down on those in this position. I was so touched by his genuine honesty and encouragement. More-so because he was once himself like me.  I learned that he was pre-med too, and put his dream off and regrets it to this day. He did the autotransfusionist position and after working in that position was promoted to his current position as hiring manager. He feels that I am a better candidate than he ever was for medical school, so I should pursue it and not put it off for a few years to work. He told me that he knows I am going to be a doctor because he can see it in the answers I provided, and in my experiences listed on my resume. I was touched. I believe everything happens for a reason, and to think I was dragging my feet to go for this interview(my second this week).God works in mysterious ways.

Renewed

I am a huge Apple fan(I have a Mac Book Pro, Ipod Nano, and plan to get the Ipad 3 next year), and was devastated by the passing of Steve Jobs. However, it is in his passing that I have discovered his amazing commencement speech giving in 2005 at Stanford University due to a great medical student blogger. What stuck with me the most was connecting the dots of our past "bad" experiences that make up our big picture.  We are usually upset and mad at having "failed" at something, but when we look back over it in retrospect it was usually for our good and part of the big picture. However, we can't look at current "bad" experiences or "failures" and project into the future what we think will come of it. We can only look back and discover how those experiences helped to contribute to our big picture/ goal/ dream. An exercise that I did that is posted on her blog is I wrote out all of my "bad" experiences or "failures," and then wrote what good came from them and how they helped me to get to this point.  It truly works. I did this and now I feel renewed. It is still too early and fresh for me to look at my MCAT score and wonder why did this happen, but I will trust that it happened for a reason that is part of my big picture.